Panic Mode: When baby makes six

I might be revealing a little too much about myself right now. And perhaps I will be flamed for what I'm about to admit. I am 14 weeks pregnant with my fourth child and I am scared out of my mind. Panicked, actually.

It's a different kind of panic I felt when I was pregnant with my first child. Those anxieties stemmed from the fact that I had never been a mom before. Was I going to be a good mom? How was the transition going to be as I morphed from working girl to stay at home mom? Could I handle the demands of a newborn? This time, however, I know the demands of a newborn and so I am anxious about how to tend to/care for/make time for our newborn and six year old and three year old twins. I am petrified that someone will get lost in the mix...that someone will end up short-changed. How do I make sure everyone has their needs met? How will I do this?

Certainly, my husband and I knew what we were getting into. We tried to get pregnant and we kept trying after two early losses, so I am in no way suggesting that this all happened by accident. But, honestly, that's how I feel some moments. I admit that I wonder how in the world we are going to make this work. Again, it's not all moments - I am thrilled beyond belief to add to our family. But I am really trying to figure it all out - the logistics, the juggling, and, most importantly, the division of my attention. Right now, I can't seem to make it work in my head. Perhaps, when I'm in the thick of it, it will all just happen naturally. Unfortunately, I am a girl who likes to plan...and I'm having trouble making this plan take shape. So, I guess what I really would love is some suggestions and advice. Moms, how do you juggle? Stay organized? Be everywhere at once? What are your secrets? Please share your thoughts and I will post your insights in an upcoming blog and on Facebook.